Msshmalrdy
07-12-2007, 02:06 AM
feels like yesteray i was just writing on here about my feelings on shane leaving for iraq but now hes left the world...
my name is jessica and the love of my life passed away in iraq 3 weeks ago... Shane was the name. He was PFC Stinson originally based in GA. He had only been there 3 months but luckily he had his RnR early he had it in end of may so i only saw him a month ago... He passed away June 23rd. He is the love of my life and i had spoke with him on the 22nd and he was fine and dissapointed i wasnt pregnant. I went to cancun the next day when he passed and it was hidden from me from his family and mine back here in CA at home. I had a weird feeling something was up so the 28th which was a thursday i called shanes house here in cali and spoke to his step father he said shane was fine and that he would let him know i called and i love him and ill be home for him to call in a couple days... so the next day friday i was like o well im going to go in the computer lab they had at the hotel to see if my baby wrote me and i got on stupid myspace of course and messages pouring in im sorry for ur loss hes in a better place... and each person i read more and more and im thinking OMG no... so i cried hystarically and i called my mom and she finally told me. We had his veiwing and funeral last week im still in shock and although i saw his body in open casket i dont believe it... i feel im still waiting for him to call........ shane and i had the best relationship it was surrounded with so much love... i never thought i could love or be loved as much as him and i did.... it was truely amazing and its going to be yrs and yrs that i ever find someone else nobody will ever be like shane but i do know as my guardian angel he will make sure im well taken care of like he did maybe not as good but i know he will make sure im taken care of. i miss him so much i have my days where im locked in a room... i still havent gone to work im not ready to yet bc just reminds me he used to come in or wait for me bc he would pick me up... he promised me he would be to much of a hero bc i had told him he was already one so jsut get his job done and come home safe and he said "of course babe why wouldnt i? i will be with you forever and we are going to have a fb team of kids and a nice house". shane and i planned our future till we were 100 yrs old. shane was the type of person who i dont think would of come back a little ****ed in the head but he would appriciate what we have here alot more he already mentioned that... i spoke with him the day b4 he passed and i also got a letter from him that day and i also got a letter july 3rd that he wrote after we got off the phone... i just wish he would call bc i have so much to tell him like im so close with his family... mine and his go to dinner and they want me to go to vegas for his uncles wedding and i talk to his mom 2-3 times a day and his cousin everyday and his aunt every week... his family and i being so close was so important to him in fact the last letter he wrote was "that he was so happy im getting so close with his family". I had met his dad for the 1st time and he told me my son talked so much about u and thank u so much for taking care of him and i wish i was aat ur wedding not his funeral.... then of course i had to deal with jen drama and stephanie which are ex gfs but not so much but man my nightmare was her being there and she was.... shes so childish is all i have to say. but anyways i had so mcu faith he was coming home bc he had so much faith and the day b4 he passed he asked me to move to Georgia with him when he returns... im just still in shock im still waiting for him to call.... drives me nuts....
i need major help.... im stuck i feel awful... please write me here or email would be better msshmalrdy@hotmail.com
my name is jessica and the love of my life passed away in iraq 3 weeks ago... Shane was the name. He was PFC Stinson originally based in GA. He had only been there 3 months but luckily he had his RnR early he had it in end of may so i only saw him a month ago... He passed away June 23rd. He is the love of my life and i had spoke with him on the 22nd and he was fine and dissapointed i wasnt pregnant. I went to cancun the next day when he passed and it was hidden from me from his family and mine back here in CA at home. I had a weird feeling something was up so the 28th which was a thursday i called shanes house here in cali and spoke to his step father he said shane was fine and that he would let him know i called and i love him and ill be home for him to call in a couple days... so the next day friday i was like o well im going to go in the computer lab they had at the hotel to see if my baby wrote me and i got on stupid myspace of course and messages pouring in im sorry for ur loss hes in a better place... and each person i read more and more and im thinking OMG no... so i cried hystarically and i called my mom and she finally told me. We had his veiwing and funeral last week im still in shock and although i saw his body in open casket i dont believe it... i feel im still waiting for him to call........ shane and i had the best relationship it was surrounded with so much love... i never thought i could love or be loved as much as him and i did.... it was truely amazing and its going to be yrs and yrs that i ever find someone else nobody will ever be like shane but i do know as my guardian angel he will make sure im well taken care of like he did maybe not as good but i know he will make sure im taken care of. i miss him so much i have my days where im locked in a room... i still havent gone to work im not ready to yet bc just reminds me he used to come in or wait for me bc he would pick me up... he promised me he would be to much of a hero bc i had told him he was already one so jsut get his job done and come home safe and he said "of course babe why wouldnt i? i will be with you forever and we are going to have a fb team of kids and a nice house". shane and i planned our future till we were 100 yrs old. shane was the type of person who i dont think would of come back a little ****ed in the head but he would appriciate what we have here alot more he already mentioned that... i spoke with him the day b4 he passed and i also got a letter from him that day and i also got a letter july 3rd that he wrote after we got off the phone... i just wish he would call bc i have so much to tell him like im so close with his family... mine and his go to dinner and they want me to go to vegas for his uncles wedding and i talk to his mom 2-3 times a day and his cousin everyday and his aunt every week... his family and i being so close was so important to him in fact the last letter he wrote was "that he was so happy im getting so close with his family". I had met his dad for the 1st time and he told me my son talked so much about u and thank u so much for taking care of him and i wish i was aat ur wedding not his funeral.... then of course i had to deal with jen drama and stephanie which are ex gfs but not so much but man my nightmare was her being there and she was.... shes so childish is all i have to say. but anyways i had so mcu faith he was coming home bc he had so much faith and the day b4 he passed he asked me to move to Georgia with him when he returns... im just still in shock im still waiting for him to call.... drives me nuts....
i need major help.... im stuck i feel awful... please write me here or email would be better msshmalrdy@hotmail.com